45

I almost forgot...I turned 45!

Some age changes hit you and other go unnoticed. This one is coming at a time of complete transition and seems to be effecting my self perception. I am having little pods of self doubt that are actually effecting how I interact with the world. I find myself "pondering" those unproductive and destructive questions..."why would anyone hire you? why would anyone date you?" I fully know its is the side effect of so much transition and I can't say that it is completely unhelpful but...arrrrggghhh....it might not be the healthiest mind loop to ever play in my head.

I might not fully understand what this experience, and birthday have done to me until I can stand in front of my friends back in CA. Sometimes the best mirror is a friend. Here is the fantastic birthday dessert that they made me...